{uP and dOwn}

life is like a circle..
sometime we are on top..
and sometime we are at the bottom..

love is like a circle too..
even though the shape doesn't seem so..
sometimes we are happy together..
and sometime we felt hatred to each other..

the truth is i never felt the hatred but kind of ..no word can tell it..
he make me wonder if i am the only one feel the love.
he make me tired of thinking whether you are really in love with me.

today is 31st December 2009..about 23 hours before new year.
which means we have been together for 2 years.
he make me wonder whether he knows this date or not.
deep inside me i feel he doesn't.

but deep inside me i hope he does.

i love december because we gonna have 4days of working days a week. it always been a holiday for every week.

a year ago. at this time i was in Tanjung Karang. i will be back to HUKM for every week on December. much more often than he does. he was back here in hukm only once in 2 months. he make me crazy. but only me i think. sad.

we are celebrating our first year of being together. but only me who remember the date i guess. he never mention about it.

maybe i am so childish. expecting everyone remember all special dates in my life. but i really want him to remember that date. but it is ok for me. just an accidental date that i have choose maybe.

in future i hope he do remember our engagement date and anniversary as well.
hopefully.

i wrote this in sad mode
it is ok to be sad.
love is like a circle.
even though the shape doesn't seem so.