dh lame xpost anything..even gmbr..
xtau la knape..dh bosan kot ngadap laptop je..
arini rase cdh..ari2 pon cdh gak..tp arini rase nk luahkan kn kt cini..
cdh ni kn dlm ati je..kt luar..muka n perangai xsedih pon..sbb xsuke org tau bile kite cdh..nnt org ty..lg cdh..klu bleh xnak pikir..tp..mkn lame dipendam lg saket..
my bf ckp lelaki ni cepat cemburu..
die pon mcm tu..ok la kite faham laa..malas nk saketkan ati sape2 kan..igtkan die jenis xkesah je..sbb..die pon bukannye observant sgt..kite ni yg sgt observant!..kite patut lg jeles kot..tp..simpan je laaa..die bkn laki aku pon..
dulu penah snap pic ngan laki mase kt conference..for me..klu die pon snap pic mcm tu..bleh terima kot..sbb obsviously nothing will happen..org tu pon bkn islam pon..mkn babi lg..xensem plak tu..so many things to be considered before let my temper out..if i was him..if i was him laaa kan..masalahnye x..the reason y i took that pic sbb they r the closed friends of mine mase kt conference tu..of coz for kind of memory nk took pic ngan diorg kan..mmm...different people different view..bleeewwweeekkk..benci giler!!!..ske ati laa kan..then my fault is i upload it into my fb..but!..before i decide to uploading any pic of coz i choose which i should post and which one are not..the reason y i upload those pic wif the guys is..as stated above..they are not muslim..xensem..kenal 2 minggu..DEFINITELY NOTHING WILL HAPPEN BETWEEN US!!!..xtau la ap yg die fikir ek..but the thing is..he angry wif me rearding thos pics..and the reason behind is..of coz..pic wif guy n xensem..tau plak..sbb tu la ak post kot..ngeng betol!..tu pon nk jeles..he mentioned that his fren kutuk2 those pic as well..and die tercabar la konon..bleeeewwwweeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!...geram ak..tp dlm ati je laaa..dh org nk marah..kite pon delete la gmbr tu..xfaham betol..malas nk pikir..i asked him whether he really angry of those pic or he is shamed of his friends word?..the answer is those pic..tp ak dh post gmbr tu..2-3ari kot..baru nk marah..mmm..we haven't discuss about that thing after that..for me..that is not really good reason to get jealous..if you dont like it..fine!..i won't do it next time.....i do care about it even though it is silly reason for me..
but...if i looked back..i kept taking care of his feeling rather than me..he never do it for me..he is such a very an observant person...i can say it out loud..you are not observant..such a very simple thing which people might get it he doesn't..coz of his nature i do apologize him for whatever he is doing..but..i do get jealous as well..everyone should..but..did he ever appreciate it..did he able to recognize it?..makan hati je laaa..i never been in same group wif him..not even in same posting..thus i'm not sure bout his relationship wif other girls in my batch..i dont want to make my self busy of thinking bout it and stalking him..just make a positive thinking that i believe in him..he is honest..yes very honest person..that y i do love him..he is loyal tooo..but..sometime whatever he is doing make me feel sad..he doesnt think what is the effect of his doing..mcm budak2..should i told him whenever i get jealous..whenever i get angry..whenever i fell sad..should i?.. from my face he should know..takkan la nak nangis..yes i did cry..but whenever i am alone..in my room..in the middle of night..then next morning mata bengkak..xsuke..nnt org ty..:-(
until now i haven't told what make me fell sad..yes..i rather keep it in myself..coz it is too painful for me to said it..to blame other people..yet i feel this is the better way..nobody will read this i hope..i wont tell anybody even the closest friends of mine..
there is one girl from his ssm group..better not to tell her name here..she prettier than me..everyone agree bout that..she is slimmer than me..she is clever than me..she is a polite girl..sounds like a gadis melayu terakhir i can say..she is everything more than me..i dont care actually..everyone has their own specialty..i do admire my self than other..that is me..they are in same ssm group and of coz in same group..is that the reason they are getting close..dont know..dont have motivation to get to know bout it..whenever she posted anything in the fb he will comment on it..yeah..it is happen to me too..and do it to others too..but not on every posts..even feel like to do it..but i know everyone is reading those post..they may get misunderstood..that is what happen to me..may be i just misunderstand..but it make me sad..and he did not notice it..at first i dont want to took it seriously..until..he post somthing ..and she comment on it..yeah i know..it is normal..let me tell what is the content..roughly it is sounds like this..HE:.."saw a brutallity and violence patient in the clinic today"-just what i can remember..few of my friend did comment on it as well..as well as the girl..SHE:.."i was there as welll..xtakot pon"..yeah i shouldn't get angry right..i'm not angry of her statement..i am angry because HE reply this: "*** ko xtakot eh..nnt ko selamatkan ak eh"...do i ever tell other guy to save me..i know he will get angry if i ask other..but why he ask other girl..even though it sound joke..but..i am devastated..why shouldn't he think what i think..bravely i reply: better you watch out whatever words that coming out from your brain..end up he did not reply..as well as everybody except one (one guy comment -owned-)...should i break up wif him..should i..it will break my heart tripple as i break his heart..am i perasan sorg2..ye kot..

i was thinking a head..what if i get married wf him..but he does not change..i will sad all the way..when will this end..soon?..nope..i know..